A Big Sister in Heaven

Today was a pretty healthy day for me! I started my day doing a run with Maverick, and got a little sign from Vivi (a big finch, and a little finch flew together down Mary Street and perched at the end watching me and twittering joyfully). I spent the rest of the day cleaning and working hard. It was (and still is, because I keep getting up to do more) exhausting, but worthwhile. I got myself a glass of wine, but then just poured it out, uninterested.

Since starting to save for this surrogacy journey, I am starting to feel like there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Not necessarily in terms of alleviating the grief that is with me always, but in terms of knowing there is hope and purpose in life. Even if awful things have happened, there are good things, too. And I want to be ready for them, prepared for them, excited for them.

I spent a lot of time this weekend reading surrogacy forums and getting more and more educated, and I am just so excited to begin.